Breakup Diary: No Sex

T and I were still together when I wrote this, but things are quickly going downhill.  2 months until we breakup... 4/12 Back to no sex again with T.  I don’t want to live this life again.  And I won’t.  I don’t want this to take up my energy.  I want my energy for other things.  But we are back at no sex at all.  We’ve had sex once since we’ve been back.  That’s once in 6 weeks.  He’s off it entirely.  I’m the most gorgeous I’ve ever looked with my new healthy eating and exercising stint.  He’s not even busy – well not busy with work. What should I do?  I feel like moving out and away.  I could divorce him I guess.  I don’t know what I want to do…well I want him and I want to have sex.  Why is it so hard?  I just know I don’t want to have this kind of life again.  Not any more.  I refuse.  It’s sad.  What a difference having a bit of sex made to my life.  It was like I was back to normal.  Maybe we just can’t be together.  I’m not asking for a lot of sex, just a little.  I’m not asking for extreme sex, just normal.  Maybe we can’t live together.